Life cycle..

To see Ma ma leave is just like Nana..
Memories of the past invaded into my mind.
Bringin the saddest day I had to go thru.
Losing my granny.
Nana's death was too soon.
Too fast.
I din even had the chance to say goodbye..
And now I'm losing another one..
It's just a cycle we haf to go thru.
Every of them hurts like hell..
No tears will be saved..
No heartbreaks to be mended.
They're gone...
The next minute u realize dat u're sittin at the funeral parlour..
Lookin at their dead bodies..
They no longer talk..
Or smile at u.
No more hugs..


I miss Nana to the max.
She's always there in the living room when I'm out of my bedroom..
Combing her hair,
Readin books..
I remembered the last phrase she said to me dat afternoon.
"Lyn, finish dis for me."
I just told her to finish it up and I'm goin out now.
It hurts to reminise dat day..
Cuz I felt like I forsee wadever dat she was tryin to tell me.
I felt like I've disappoint her..
I wished I could do it all over again.
I wished I could erased the mistakes..
But u cant.
We dun haf a magical eraser..
Nor do we haf a time machine.
If I could only see her for one more minute.
The comfortin hugs dat never failed to make me feel better.
The white hair,
Her smile..
She lived to a ripe old age..
But I'm still not willing to let go..
I love her too much.
Every wake of dawn,
I still look at her pictures to remind me dat she's there for me...
Is dis the life she wanted me to live?
Is dis the way she wanted me to be?
Will I ever meet her again??




I love u.....