真的不甘心！！！

I really dun get it!
Why does Dad give Emma all the priority dat was supposed to be mine?
Dad's gonna walk her down the aisle..
But won't walk me down the aisle?
Or even let me invite our relatives to my wedding dinner?
WTF?!?!?!?
I'm really stressed out to the max!
WAD'S FUCKIN WRONG WIF U?!
Haven't u done enuf damage already?
I dun need u to pay a single cent...
But u still wanna make my wedding miserable?
WTF?!
有没有觉得自己太过分了？
有没有想过我的感受？
有没有放我的婚姻在你的眼里？
Emma那么重要吗？
不然让他叫你爸爸咯？
真的很过分！！！！！！
我真的不甘心！
到底谁是你的女儿？
这个伤痕，
用自我真的没办法说出我的苦。
你这一次给我的伤害太深了。
Words really failed to express how I feel inside!
You tore my heart into a gazillion pieces..
There's no way u can ever fix dis!
Wad do u expect?
For me to smile and say "It's okay"?
U want to haf everythin ur way..
Haf u ever considered how would I feel bout it?
It's my fuckin wedding!
I find it so hard to believe dat u'll put EMMA first..
EVERYTHIN IS BOUT EM!
WAD FUCKIN SHYT IS NOT BOUT EM?!
I'M SERIOUSLY GETTING SICK OF ALL THE BULLSHYT U SAY..
CUZ NONE OF IT IS EVEN RELATED TO ME!
你的面子很重要。。。
重要到失身我的一生一世的婚姻。
Wad a reason I hafto deal wif?!
DIS IS THE KINDA FATHER I HAF..
WOW~~~!
U're super superb DAD...

U're lost but never forgotten

小猪仔。。。
我知道你现在很讨厌我。
不要再生气我了啦，
可以吗？
我真的不是故意的。
请你原谅我。。
不要再气我了。
我答应你，
我会乖乖的。
虽然不是和你在一起，
并不代表我不疼你嘛。
不要伤心了。
我是很疼。
但却我们没缘分啊。
我在东，
你在西。
我要结婚了，
你应该替我高兴的，对不对？
真的。。。
不要再生气了。
我会心疼的。
答应你。。。。
没结婚前，
回去找你。
不要再生气了啦。

对不起 对不起 对不起 X100

怎样才肯原谅我呢？

Weddin bands

I still cant decide on my wedding bands...
Hmmm~~ 
Shud I go for the one I like,
Or search summore?
I really cant decide.
Looks like we gotta make a trip down to Kay Elle and see wad they haf there.
I hope to find somethin I love.
Not plainly like...

Dar~ when will u be goin back to Kay Elle?
I'm comin wif u.. 
*winks*

Do u believe in Happy Ever After?

These few days has been really tiring,
Hectic and at the same time heart breakin.
I din expect Dad to react dat way.
I think it's totally absurd and self fish for him to fore go my once in  a life time thingie because wants to take care of his face.
EGO...
At dis time?
It's totally unacceptable for me.
Wad kinda parents do I really haf?
Dad's prepared to walk Em down the aisle while she's only his niece,
Why can't he walk his own daughter?
Really....
Can anyone find me the best explanation?
For the past 27 years,
All I was livin behind everyone's silhouette.
Everyone was more important.
Everyone else is better than me...
Now even for my wedding I hafto give way to them?
To satisfy them? 
Why???
It's my once in a lifetime thing...
Isn't dis suppose to be about me and my Hubby?
So whose priorities is not right- NOW?
Honestly,
I wished my parents could be a lil more rude,
A lil more crazy..
I would haf done things the other way round.
Probably...
U're not invited to ur own daughter's weddin!
Why is it so hard to see dat I'm gonna get married one day?
But dat dun mean dat I dun care for my family...
Wad kinda bullshyt am I takin?
Aarrrrrggghhhhh!!!!

On the other hand,

I know dat he's tryin very hard to make my dream wedding to come true.

Well, it's not too much to ask for rite?

Since it's a simpler version of it?

I've got no doubts bout the decision I've made.

Cuz I'm happy...

Of cuz I know not everyday would be pink and candy..

There'll be moments too.

But at least by the end of the day,

I'll be waking up next to someone who truly loves me for who I am.

And to think of it,

It all happened at quite a right timing.

The other day at the bridal shop,

Everything fit into the missing puzzles.

Is there anyone else who would love me dat way?

Yes, we had our arguments and fights.

We had our moments..

But it all work out in the end.

"The person whom u could be patient wif not matter wad he does,

Is the one who u can marry"

And he was it...

Some stuffs are too hard to explain..

End of the day,

I want the wedding the way we planned it.

He has strive hard to make sure I get the one I wanted.

Dat's all I wanna know... =)