As I read back my diaries.. There are only few names dat appealed to me.
Ultraman
Lim
Gun
Why these people?
And also my loved ones..
Seng 哥哥
小弟
People who has been there for years. Some fade away and left foot prints.
And some stayed for the longest coaster rides ever. =)
For dat... I'll always be blessed.
Ultraman~
Do u remember how we met? I'll always remember the time u came to rescue me. I remember sittin by the window watchin out for u to appear. I remember wad u said to me in the car "Where can let people simply look at u wan?" as u wind up the side of my window. Even tho we dun see each other so often while we dated.. But vast memories of us together has printed in my heart. I'll always remember "Let's jump down from the 17th floor. Dat way we'll forever be together." It sounds crazy until to dis day. But I know dat u'll be the one and only dat will say dat to me. Until to dis day, there's 2 messages from u dat I loved the most.
" Hihi, wat r u doing now? Just now c u but now still miss u... how leh? In dream i won't trust anymore, cuz it's won't work & will make me more sad & cry! Just can't stop thinking of u! Anyway i also very tired lo, so now i going 2 be tu tu liao... SAD SAD SAD :( "
" *DO YOU KNOW* When u re not around i feel lonely, when u call me i feel u just beside me, when i c u, i feel very happy & i hope 1DAY SAY FOREVER... "
But I waited and waited. Yet u never gave me the assurance dat we could be together forever. I remember writin dis in a very broken heart state..
" For better or worse.. I'll be there.
For the one I love is you..
But for how long do you wanna hurt me?
It's time to get things straight.
It's either me or her.
Cuz I can't stand sharing you anymore.
It's getting unfair every single minute...
I stayed patient..
Cuz I love you and believed you.
I want us to last..
Things should start changing now. "
But we were together for 1 and a half years. Thru trials and trials.. But I chose to give up in the end. Cuz I know by the end of the day, I'm just the other girl in your life. So many years down the road, u still made me question myself "Was it the right choice to break up wif u?" But everythin is already said and done. No more turnin back.
*Foolish - Ashanti*
Lim..
Listed as one of Got Away..
My fling's side kick.
I remembered how adorable he sounded over the phone.
How he always kept me accompanied whenever Gun's busy wif somethin else.. And someone else.
How he'd always teasin me, gettin on my nerves.
Just as if he's sayin
"Take another look at me."
I wrote dis for Lim back in 2005
Faded memories of the past
Begins to flood back into my mind...
The times I've spent in Prai
One of the most valuable memories.
Days of being wild and care free.
Days of being naive...
I was so blessed with so many friends.
Being everyone's favorite girl
Really missed those times..
Cuz I know that is in the past now.
And it'll never return ever again..
Everytime I start to think of Prai..
The first ones that always comes to mind,
Would definitely be Lim and Gun.
Both of them has left major foot prints in my heart.
I can never seem to forget them
Here I am after 3 years.
Still reminiscing the times
I've spent with them..
Still missing them..
If I could only go back to the days when I was with them..
I would have made changes..
I would have chosen Lim
Instead of Gun.
I wouldn't have taken Lim for granted.
Now...
All of that is in the past.
Just sweet memories of the past.
Will I ever get to see Lim again?
Will we be given a second chance?
Questions without answers..
All I could do is hope.
And until to dis day,
I still do think of Lim every now and then.
It was the right choice dat Gun and I moved on.
Cuz He'll never be the guy I would wanna marry one day =)
My Bro-s..
An elder bro and younger bro.
Although not blood related to me..
But the commitment dat they gave me is totally irreplaceable..
I'm a pampered lil sis.. =)
I haf a bro who can sense me from far away.
A bro who will see his sis every single day after work.
And pat his baby sis to sleep before leavin.
A bro whom will kiss his baby sis on the fore head.
For all the memories we had for these 9 years,
Is my teachin ropes in life.
Even my younger bro..
Goes back 6 years ago.
Dis pixs are from my 04' diary.
弟~ u've been my emotional support for so many years.
And u understand me so well.
I'm really blessed to haf u in my life.
Without questions asked,
U'll be there for me.
We could talk thru eyes..
And every guy whom I was with,
Will always envy the connection we haf.
I'm proud of u..
For all the things dat u sacrificed for me.
It's somethin dat cant be bought wif money.
There's one particular incident dat I will always remember.
I'll always remember the surprise u and Seng 哥哥 gave me on 23rd of December 05.
A surprise dat every sister would be blessed to haf..
Just to be there before Christmas.
I'm really really superbly blessed to haf u both as my brothers.
No blood ties..
Yet sincere sacrifices from the heart.
Love always
