Is it endin or is it just the beginning?

U broke my heart and again..
Leavin me numb on the floor.
One minute or hot,
The next ur cold.
Why can dis be?
How can dis ever work?
I gave u my heart,
But u tore it into shreds.
Will u care if I just went away?
Questions questions.
I already said everythin I wanna say...
I wont say it for the sake of u wantin to hear it,
Why has ur heart turned cold?
I could feel dat I felt happier each time I ignore u..
Treat u cold, cruel...
Dat's all u wanted wasn't it?
I gave u the best...
But u couldn't appreciate it..
It changed when I treated u like dirt.
Why does it always hafto be like dat.
U wont treat me right till ur place is threaten?!
How many times we hafto go thru dis till u wake up?

The 50 grand dream seems so far away.
It almost feels like u no longer fit in dat particular dream.
Is there any turning back?
U know better than I do.
U asked if I'm angry at u?
Yes I am...
More than just angry..
I'm pissed, disappointed..
Cuz u've no intentions on keepin the promise u've made me.
That hurts...
More than u can tell.
I dun really understand wad's up wif all ur lame excuses...
Ur selfish...
U're bein the neantheral man.
And I totally hates it!
Cant for once u do somethin to make sure I'm okay?
U're taking all dis for granted.
U repeat the same shyt all over again.
When I finally wanna shut u out of my life,
Then u finally make a move.
All dis shyt is beginning to get very restless for me.
People improve everyday,
But u seem to be stuck in the same spot for God knows how many dino years?!
U better pull ur act together!
IT'S NOW OR NEVER!
Once rice becomes porridge,
U can precisely do nothin but eat it.