I'm tryin the best I can

Hence the title..
Lately lotsa of things has happened.
My family...
Work..
Even my Bf is all in a mess!!!!

Everyday I need to keep remindin myself dat someone out there loves me..
Needs me..
Tryin so hard to be sane.
Tryin so hard to be on my best behavior.
And every minute it gets harder...
Tears rolled down my cheek but no one will be here to see it.
I've been thru a rather challenging life..
I kept reminding myself dat I've got thru dis far.
I can make it to the end of the racing line.
I feel so lost.
There's no one to walk wif me..
Would u hold my hand and guide me thru?


At times I really feel like endin dis once and for all.
The pain's too much to take.
I'm sick of people telling me dat they're my parents,
I shouldn't treat them dat way.
I'm sick of people saying how fortunate I am.
Does anyone know how it feels to be me?
I guess they don't.
SO STOP ASSUMING DAT I'M JUST A ROTTEN EGG.
I've been the ugly duckling all my life.
I've paid my dues..
Wad is dat so hard to understand?
MY PARENTS DUN LOVE ME.
THEY'VE NEVER WANTED ME.
Stop judging...

All I ever wanted was to be wif someone I love.
Someone who'd love me back.
But lately it seems dat we're drifting apart so quickly.
Is it the distance?
Or he's tired of havin a gf like me?
I know in alot of ways I'm a failure..
But I already did my best...
I dun think there's anythin else I din do.
I've done everythin at my very best.
But...
I seems like I never done enuf..
Do I still need to prove how much I love u?
Haven't I proven enuf?
I really dunno wadelse I could do to prove myself.
Is it my prob?
Or is it urs??
I really dun haf the answer..
I hope u can at least gimme a sincere answer.
Are we together cuz we love each other?
Or is it just a habit?
Just because I'm the kinda gf u wanted?
Can u at least put me in ur shoes before u make a decision?
Love me or leave me.
Dun leave me at the crossroads..
I dunno where to go..
Or shud I just say I haf no where to go.


I wished I could just pack my bags and leave.
Is there any reasons I shud stay?
My parents dun need me..
Someone else can do a better job than I can.
My bf is surviving fine without me.
By the end of the day...
I'm no one and I haf no one.
I'm just someone who's born to satisfy someone else's life............