I cant help it at times....

Sometimes...
I really cant help missing him.
Honestly,
All along he's the only one who ever cared to try his best...
To make me feel better..
To let me haf my way yet stand behind and protect me.
The only one who ever cared to buy me flowers..
To be fully committed in our relationship..
He's the one and only...
Irreplaceable.
I know it's self fish to think dat I could replace him.
I could still remember every single thing he did for me.
It's still so fresh in mind.
When I look back at wad we used to haf...
I know he spoils me bad.


He buys me stuffs to let me know dat he's thinkin of me.
Every single thing dat he chooses..
It's always a hint.
I still remember when he asked me bout wad kinda ring I liked...
But back then we were too young..
I was too afraid to be fully committed to him and him alone.
I wasn't ready..
But yet he waited without any complaints..
He waited till time's up.
Tho he din say goodbye,
He told me he loved me.
As years passed...
Lotsa things still reminds me of him.
Flowers on every thurdays...
24red rose wif 7 pink ones..
All the lil details he made.
No one will be able to replace those meanings.



Now when everythin is gone...
The only thing dat I've left of him is the memories we built together..
No one else can be him...
I hafto face facts.
There'll only be one Des..
I wished things din hafto end dis way.
Wished the memories wouldn't stop building...
But who are we to choose when we die?
Life has to go on...
No matter how painful it is...
But losing him back then was losing a part of myself.
I had a choice,
But I decided to let it be like we broke up.
So many times I wanted to scream my heart out but failed..
It's no use...
He'll never come back here..
The only thing one could bring along when death is at door..
Is only precious memories,
No one could take away.
And for dat...
I'm always grateful.....


Love always Desmond C.F.C