CNY and Valentines'

It's the first day of Cny..

Crashed wif Valentines' day...

Lame.. *yawn*

Well...

It's not dat I'm not enjoying...

It's just dat I oughtta be somewhere else.

My family...

I did dis just to make him and his family happy.

Why is dat so hard to understand?

I really wonder at times...
Mom's really givin me a hard time,
I need some air to breathe.....
Wad is CNY really about?
Is it about meeting up wif relatives and haf some time to catch up???
Or is it all abou showing off?
I'm tired...

I just came to spend dis CNY wif his family,
Cuz because I wanted him to be happy...
Wad's there so much to ask for.
Not as if I'm not goin back...
*give it a rest*
I' m really tired of pretending...
Pretending dat it's some great moments...
I dun wanna see them!
All they ever do is the same thing every single year!!!
Wad are u workin as now?
Why do we even hafto compare?!
I'm content wif my own life!
I've always been the black sheep...
And always will be...
Wad do they know?
Who the hell are they to even judge?!

I just wanna spend my holidays the way I want,
If meeting up family members are so important..
Why the comparisons?
Why the back stabbing?
Why do they hafto judge every single human being dat walk past the door?
I JUST DUN FUCKIN GET It!
I just wanna be myself..
To live in my own shoes..
Not pretend to be someone else...
Someone who pretends to laugh ad haf a good time.
Dat's just not me.
Why is it so hard to accept dat?!
Why is it so hard to my parents to be happy..
Happy for me bein me...
Happy the way I turn out?!
I just wanna be happy...
Is dat too much to ask for?