History Repeated

People change..
From time to time.
Dat's a fact no one is able to change in their lifetime.
Yea, I guessed dat I've expected it to happen..
Bad timing?
I guess so...

I just needed to talk..
But it seems dat it's kinda impossible rite now.
I dun wanna spoil the honeymoon mood.
I'm tryin really hard.
Oh well...
Shyt happens all the time doesn't it?
But why do I feel so betrayed?
I feel like cryin..
I felt like I lost my bestie.
Every step of the way,
Makes me weaker..
I'm losing a piece of myself every step I take.



Who to turn to?
Family?
Bf?
Friends?
Who the hell am I kidding?
Just as much as it sucks to say..
By the end of the day,
I'm just a loner.
At home,
At work,
Outside.
Makes no difference.
Of cuz everyone needs someone.
Dat I haf no doubts.
But the right to the point is,
Who chooses to be there wif u?

Moments dat can kill a soul?
I may be crappin now..
But dat's the way it feels to me.
Mebbe my life is too complicated.
Mebbe my feelings are too jumbled up.
Wadever reason it may be..
Dis is just me.
I cant be anyone else.
I dun even wanna try.



I'm messed up right now.
I wished I could clean up..
I need a whole lot deal of time to.
I wished I could say I can manage,
I doubt it I could.
I wanna get away..
Clear my mind and heart.
Sounds easy,
But way too hard to achieve.
I need a one way ticket outta here.
At least for the time being.