Wad if....

Sometimes I really wonder wad if?
There's so many wad if-s....
Wad if I had ur baby..
Are u ready to take the responsibilities?
Are u ready to commit to dis kinda environment?
Are u ready to be the perfect dad?
I know u'd be a great dad..
But when it comes to bein ready...
I kinda doubt dat. * Dun hate me *
Thou I ❤ u to bits...
But sometimes it's just reality dat no one is perfect.


But there's also alot of other wad if-s...
Today,
Steven C. proposed and told me to wait for him for 3 years.
He'll give me all dat I ever dreamed of.
“你就是我要娶的人。我一定会完成你的梦”
Honestly..
I was really touched when he said dat.
Cuz I knew dat he meant every words.
Thou I never agreed or said anythin...
Still I can't help wondering....
Wad if Steven and I were an item again?
Will we work out better than before?
Cuz we've grown up and more mature now?
How would it feels to be back in his arms again?
I could feel my heart changin a lil when I met him back.
Dat's why I wanted u to come back soon...

I know I can be annoyin at times..
I cant help it.
I want no one else but u...
But if u're always away like dat...
I no longer can deal wif all dat.
Always when I'm facing problems,
U're not here wif me..
The one who's comfortin me isn't u.
Dat hurts a whole lot deal.
Cuz u're the one who's suppose to be comfortin me...
Not someone else.
I need u here wif me..
But u're always somewhere else.
Sometimes it's hard to tell u when u're not ready to listen.
I need u to listen closely to my heart's beats.