Heartless + Cruelity

I get it dat men can be really self centered at times...
But dis time it's sacrificing someone else's future.
Someone else's dream and life.
How could dat man be a person I know?
A stranger dat existed in my life.
A stranger I thought I knew.
A stranger dat claim he loved me..
Why I  hafto go thru dis pain?
The mistake I din do..
WHY AM I THE ONE BEARING ALL DIS?!
Can anyone actually understand how I feel?


The pain is too excruciating. 
Will I kill myself in the process?
Will I really survive the outcome?
Why does everythin gets even worse?
Why do I hafto always be the one who's sacrificed for someone else's behalf?
Everyone's parents will definitely back their own kids up.
But to the point of sacrificing someone else's future?
Isn't dat a lil bit way outta the line?
Has anyone ever gave it a thought?
Wad if all he promised me was empty promises?
And the baby suffer the consequences?
THAT'S BLOOD ON UR HANDS!!!!
Has anyone ever thought dat he cant provide me anythin else but let me suffer for the rest of my life?

 
If u were in my shoes,
Would u even marry a guy whom betrayed u?
A guy who used u as a baby producing machine?
A guy who disrespects u?
A guy who runs away everytime a problem surfaces?
Or drinks the whole day to avoid?
A guy who needs u to tell him wad to do every single time?
HONESTLY...
I'VE SACRIFICED ENUF!
I'VE DONE MY FUCKIN PART!
I AIN'T GONNA SACRIFICE ANYMORE BECAUSE HE NEEDS ME TO!





The hurt u caused me is beyond words could ever comprehend.
Hate me all u want.
Because my reasons are based facts.
My decisions are firm.
I've squeezed my heart out.
Yet all u can say is "sorry".
Do u even think sorry is gonna make any difference?
WHO THE HELL DO U THINK U ARE?
DECIDING MY FUTURE FOR ME?!
Wad haf u ever done for me?
NOTHIN!
U can even barely survive..
Yet u said u're ready.
Honestly,
Even simple necessities in life..
U cant afford.
Wad makes u think u can give dis baby a good life?
And every single time I hafto bear ur bullshyts!
I never asked for anythin.
Yet I sacrificed and sacrificed.
Is dis wad I really deserved?
I really love me like u claimed..
Let me go!
There's no way I'm marryin u just because everythin is done.
Dat's not a reason to sacrifice my future for ur own good.
U can go do wadever u want,
I dun freakin care.
For once I'm doin dis for myself.
Why shud I be the one who suffer the consequences?
Even more when it's someone else's mistake and not mine.
How many times do u want me to die?
Is dis wad u call love?
U can go screw urself over.
I've gave u uncountable chances.
And yet everytime u took things for granted.
Do u really think I owe u anythin?
Or dat u own me?




I'm movin on wif my life.
If I die,
I die.
Dat's my own prob.
I'm not like u..
I dun sacrifice anyone for my own good.
I dun do things at someone else's expense.
Dun even think u'll be given another chance.
U'll never live to dat day.
I've done enuf,
And I haf no regrets.
I've got a better life to lead.
And dat's not the life u decide for me.
U can go screw urself for all I care.
U made me hate u.
And there's no turnin point for dat de.
To u...
Dis is all a fuckin game to own me.
Well congrats to u.
U can go and make someone else preggy for they can most probably listen to u.
Dat dumb girl wont be me.
Go and mistreat some other gal,
And see wad do u get in return.
I've stayed for long enuf.
And I haf proved my point.
U're never gonna change.
U'll only do dat for one two days.
Then it's back to the same old same old.
U haf no rights to disrespect me wad so ever.
I deserved to say no to marryin u.
Cuz u can never treat me the way I thought u could.
I haf the rights to back off now.
At least I never waited till we got married.
Only to get divorce later.
I'm never gonna do somethin dat I dun feel right towards.
Either u respect or u dun.