I still care

I still do care for him...
I cant help it even tho he poached my heart. How stupid it was to believe dat we could work dis out.. I;m aware that he's a superstar.. Why would he choose someone like me? Still... It was some sort of a satisfaction to know dat he once did had feelings for me...

Hmmm~ still I really wanna keep him in my life. So I'm always pesterin him to see me, call me... Just to hear his voice would really make my day.. The one u cant get is always the special one. I really hope dat he'll ace in the competition. Tho I really wanna go see him there, i still have doubts whether I shud anot.

Everytime he starts jokin or just to annoy me... I would really cheer up. I'm crapping bout him again...

I just miss him heaps...